Elegies in Blue

Nights and days without you
are a bluish haze,
bright in a warm way
and all I feel is cold.
Missing your sunshine,
I am eating batteries
for the chemical reactions
and never noticed until now
all the lighting fixtures
in my house are caged.
All sources of light
locked away.
Not much time has passed,
but it feels
like lifetimes.
I’m so afraid of wanting.
I just need
to be free.